Eloquently Speaking About...
The Thoughts Of A Black Man
DADDY WHERE ARE YOU?
by "Tee"
Oh how many times have I said this "DADDY WHERE ARE YOU"!! How many times have I said to my mothers boyfriend or soon to be boyfriend "DON'T" TELL ME NOTHING YOUR NOT MY FATHER"!!! Oh come on here somebody I know there are a lot of "ME'S" out there that can admit that right there. How many times I tried to understand why was my mother looking for love in all the WRONG PLACESSSS!!!!
And how many times the relationship would go the wrong way they would BEAT and BEAT and BEAT her DOWNNNNN!!!! Oh y'all don't want to know the truth today!! But I know that this is going to HELP SOMEBODYYYY!!!! Because it's time to make a difference in our lives and in the lives of children. And I am tired of seeing the foster homes all FULL UP!!! I am tired of us men thinking WE ALL THAT BECAUSE WE JUST HAD SEXXX!!! And we really think WE DID SOMETHING!!! When we have NOT!!!
Okay, okay y'all just want me to go here, okay alright let me just do this. "HUH" I looked up the word Father and Daddy and it gave me- to make oneself the founder, producer, or author of fathered, the improvement plan, TO ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITY FORRRRRRR!!! (that's it right there) NOW DID IT SAY ANTHING ABOUT YOUR GOOD LOOKS!!! And your ENDOWMENT!!! HUH!! (God help me here) DO YOU SEE ANYTHING THERE THAT SAYS HAVE SEX AND "LEAVEEEEEE" for it said "MEN" TO ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITYYYYY!!! NOW "WHERE ARE YOU DADDDDYYYYY"???? Cause I want to know.
Listen, listen I grew up "MEN" wondering when was my father was going to SHOW UP!! Because as I gotten older "MEN" I grew to hate my father because I DIDN'T KNOW WHO HE WAS!!! I was tired of all the wrong "MEN" hitting on me and telling me what to do that had a relationship with my mother.
I got tired of my mother telling me the things she went through with my father and him being a married man and NO GOOD!!! And how I was born and how she had to raise me as a single parent. I got tired "MEN" of thinking that every time a new man would be in my mothers life that this was going to be the RIGHT MAN!!!! I got tired of the REPLACEMENTS AND NOT THE REAL THINGGGG!!!
Oh this aint about you, THIS ABOUT ME!!! Oh I don't need your symphony I NEED "UNDERSTANGING" I NEED YOU TO UNDERTSAND HOW ANOTHER CHILD IS FEELINGGGGGG!!!! I need you just once come to REALISE HOW IMPORTANT YOU AREEE!!! I need you to GET THIS THROUGH YOUR HEAD BEFORE YOU LAY-UPPPP!!!
Aint about how good you look and Aint ABOUT HOW BIG YOUR BODY PARTS AREEEEEEE!!! How many times I CRIED MENNN!! How many times I watched my mother SUFFERRRR and being beatin by MENNNNNN!!!!
(awh y'all aint saying NOTHIN IN HERE)
Daddy where are you???? God help me to reach the man's mind today!! Help us understand it's not only going to take SEX, but the responsibility after the SEX and the lies is OVERRRRRR!!!!! After we thought we have proven ourselves in bed and now there is a CHILD ON THE WAYYYY!!!!
I said DADDY WHERE ARE YOU?? I aint talking about PART TIME EITHER!!! Cause that's NOT ENOUGHHHH!!!!! It's not enough when I wanted to go to the game and you were not there, it's not enough when I can't call you and you explain to me why you did what you did!! It's not enough when my mother is on her knees scrubbing white peoples floors just to PAY THE RENT!!!!! IT'S NOT ENOUGHHHH!!!
And I didn't understand why I had to where "SKIPS" when everybody else was wearing PRO KEDSSSSSS!!! (Oh y'all don't know about that) DADDY WHERE ARE YOUUU!!! Because I am thinking I am a Man and I AM NOTTTTT!!!! And moma can't do nothing with me ANY MOREEEE!!! Daddy it's fathers Day coming and I want the opportunity to HONNOR YOU!!!! And I need to hear that I am growing up to be a respectable man!!! HUH!! I SAID WHERE ARE YOU!!!
God give me the strength in here TODAY!!! Because I DON'T WANT NOBODY TO KNOW WHAT I WENT THROUGH AS A CHILDDDDD!!!! And how so many times I went without, and without knowing what a FATHER IS!!!! God give us "MEN" vision and support to know how we are MISSED and so much NEEDED in the lives of our children!!!
Oh there are a lot of us out there that can relate to this, but don't want nobody to know about it. There are a lot us "MEN" out there that is still bitter about there childhood and how they are still SUFFERRING OF THE MEMORIESSSS!!!! And this is "WHY" a lot of us don't really know about what it really is to be a Man!!
We don't know the joy of seeing our children grow up and how we have been such a father and a friend in there LIVESSSS!!!!! WE DON'T KNOW "MEN"!!! And so, and so I come to let you know what it is like. I come to touch your life and tell you before to LAY-UP and walk off realize that, that child NEEDS YOUUUU!!!!!
Don't walk away!! Don't just give your money!!! But BE THEREEEEE!!!! Be there to guide, Be there to protect, Be there to SUPPORTTTTTT!!!! Because WE NEED YOU DADDYYYY!!! WE LOVE YOU DADDYYY and DADDY WE MISS YOU!!!!
Be safe and Be Encouraged….."Tee"
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" This group is for "Men" Only"
Thanks so much "Tee" for allowing me to help the cause!
Keep Writing, Stacey Lunsford 6/30/04
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